My son.

My heart aches. It is so heavy for my son. Knowing my son will struggle daily with life. He does not know how to self regulate. I constantly have to be aware of that. He can not be a "normal" child. It simply is not possible.

My son has Asperger's Syndrome. What is Asperger's Syndrome? It is a high functioning autism. He is extremely smart. too smart, really. I mean, this kid is 8 and doing algebra already. He can read Harry Potter books on his own. The summer between kindergarten and 1st grade, he picked up charlie and the chocolate factory and read it all on his own. So he is academically smart.

but socially, he is so far behind. and it breaks my heart. It breaks it into a million pieces.

Most people dont see how difficult our day to day life is. The tantrums. the constant resistance. Out in public, I get stares from people, who see this big kid ( he could easily pass for 10 or 11 yrs old) throwing a hissy fit. and often they will think he is spoiled or rotten, when he is anything but. He is my baby, I want the world for him. I want him to be sucessful and happy.

He gets so frustrated about having Asperger's, himself. He has on occasion asked me why him, why does he have it, why cant he be "normal"? and that just breaks my heart.


I just want to help him.